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Thursday, March 31, 2011

My life is beyond crazy right now. Made Dean's List last semester and I'm nearly convinced it was the worst thing I've ever done because now there is this immense pressure to be just as good. And I don't have the motivation any more. I very nearly hate my college. I hate dorm life. The only thing I like is my nutrition class, and that's once a week on wednesdays.

I go to the gym 4x a week and never eat meat. The only thing I drink other than water is sugar free iced tea. The scale said 179 the other day, but I'm 98% sure I'm back up to somewhere around 184. Still have the world's ugliest body and the world's biggest insecurity problem. Still hate everything about myself.

Keep on truckin', I guess.

Alex and I have officially been together 11 months. Its been a year today since we kissed the first time. Its comfortable. I sometimes wonder if I'm going to get bored soon because that always happens. I won't let it happen. Id be an idiot to let him go.

I got rear ended by a tractor trailer truck last week. Scary. My car's fine.

I really should get some sleep. I just wanted to let you know I haven't died.


Sunday, January 30, 2011

I'm really sorry I've been away for so long.

I moved back into school and life got really crazy again. But I have some downtime now, so I figured I would drop a line and say hello. Even if it is really brief. Breif? Whatever.

School's going well, even though we've had soooo much snow that the first week of classes was just complete bullshit. I still haven't had my health class, and all my other sessions have only met once. I mean, it's fine with me because it's giving me extra time to get my shit together, buuuut whatevs.

It's wonderful being so close to Alex again. :)

Gah, I have lost all motivation to finish this update right now. I just want to go to bed. It's been a really loooong weekend. Hahahaaaa.

Hope everyone's doing really well.


Sunday, January 16, 2011

Just a few things.

1. I really love sex.
2. I think about dying far too often. Not in a suicidal way, more in a contemplative/frightened way.
3. I have been sick for three weeks, now.
4. I walked 10 miles in NYC yesterday.
5. Alexander Edward Puchalski is the greatest thing in my life.

That's really all. I just felt that I needed to share these things. They're buzzing around in my head, and I need to get some sleep.

Goodnight.


Monday, January 10, 2011

I have been SO SICK for the past week or so. Terrible sore throat, clogged sinuses, no voice, achey joints. Aside from working about a billion hours, I haven't really done anything. Which is probably why I still haven't lost anything.

Well, it's the new year, and it's time to change a few things.

1. Gym - AT LEAST three days a week, AT LEAST an hour each time. 30-50 minutes vigorous cardio (elliptical, probably), followed by 20-30 minutes of strength (have to start building up for Rugby!), followed by another 20-30 minutes of moderate cardio + cool down. All together, 70-110 minutes, every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. No exceptions.

2. No soda. I will only be drinking water, tea (green or black, unsweetened), coffee (200 calories at most, since it's my weakness), and hard alcohol. The empty calories just aren't worth the trouble.

3. Green tea pills and multivitamins as often as possible.

4. No scale for periods of three weeks. Work on body image, not on body weight.

5. Skip meat twice a week (not on gym days). Get protein from other sources and supplements.

6. Eat at least three times a day, starting right after waking up. No eating past 7PM unless it's a late meal and is completely unavoidable. No more than 550 calories a meal, no more than 1300 net calories a day.

7. Have sex at least twice a week (meaning two different days, not, like, one "encounter" after another). Because, seriously, sex is the best stress reducer. I've felt like a completely different person over this entire break because Alex and I haven't been able to do the deed at all. We've seriously had sex once since December 16th. It's killing me.

To Do - 1/10-1/15
- Buy green tea pills (anyone know of a good brand?)
- Start running again
- Save all paychecks / tips
- Deposit all paychecks / tips
- Make appointment for sports physical, fax paperwork to ECSU
- Clean closet
- Find glasses
- 200 crunches, 40 leg lifts, 15 squats a day
- have mouth guard made (sparkly. Because I'm already going to fuck shit up, why not make it sparkly?)
- Shopping with Lisa
- Fucking have sex because this shit is getting ridiculous
- Organize everything for Saturday's trip to NYC

There's probably more, but I'm kind of beat and can't think of it right now. I have worked 22 hours over the past three days. 'Nother 8 tomorrow (7-3, I fucking hate my life), followed by a day off on Wednesday, then two four hour shifts Thursday and Friday, during which, I have to complete a 9 hour online training course required of all Dunkin Donuts employees. FFFFUUUUUU-. Saturday, Alex and I are going into the city to see the American Idiot broadway show, courtesy of my parents (they got us train tickets and show tickets for Christmas, how sick is that?!).

I feel like there was more I wanted to say, but I don't even fucking remember.

I'm kind of obsessing over the New Zealand All Blacks' Haka right now. Look it up. It's soo fucking sick.


Thursday, January 06, 2011

      Ahhhh, it's been a long day. Was up for work at 630, and literally just got home. I am currently sipping a cup of coffee in the armchair in my living room. Very sleepy, lemme tell ya.

Everything has been beyond insane these past couple of weeks. My cousin finally got married on New Years Day. I was one of his new wife's bridesmaids, which was soo fun but soo stressful. My dress was still too big :( laaaaaaame. It doesn't help that the bride and her three sisters are easily the most perfect women in the world. Teeny tiny waists and beautiful teeth and perfect hair. Literally, perfect. Regardless, I had a really good time. The ceremony was gorgeous and the reception was soooo fun - danced for 3 straight hours wooooo cardio.

I'm feeling a little encouraged, too! After eating TERRIBLY for days and days (christmas through new years, pretty much), I reluctantly got on the scale. I didn't gain a single pound. Nothing. HAAAAALLELUJAHHHHH.

Ahhh, anyway. I don't even know what else to talk about. I'm going to NYC a week from Saturday to see the American Idiot broadway show with Alex. It's gotten really great reviews and I've wanted to see it FOREVER now, so I'm psyched. :)

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